A warning before reading this; I was a little tired when I wrote tonight. There were serious issues with spelling and coherent sentence making. I hope I was able to make enough sense that you can understand what is below.
THE UPDATE:
28 days have past since I've embarked on this quest for a better mind, body and soul. I am seeing the results of my hard work starting to peek through the globs of fat. I can see some definition showing in the bicep/tricep area, no sign of those abs yet, lol. It's pretty amazing what just a little success can breed. I definitely can tell that my posture has changed. When I'm standing in front of a mirror, my chest isnt sagging and my still big gut is sucked in, well it is a little. As the first four weeks have come to a close I stepped on the scale and was a bit disappointed to see that I lost nothing this week. A big fat 0 for the week. Still weigh 305.
Since I'm addicted to the scale right now, I know this is a bad habit but I can stop, I knew this wasn't going to be a good week. I had actually gained 4 pounds early in the week, and I had checked my past days food intake and saw that nothing had changed that would have casued this gain. I didn't even take a cheat night last week. I DID have a bad weekend this week, I extended my "cheat" to both Friday and Saturday nights. Adult beverages were consumed, too many on Saturday. While I have no scientific proof, I surmised that I gained this weight likely by increased muscle mass or last week number may have been a bit skewed by some other variable. Even though I didn't lose any weight this week I did notice this morning that I could pound a new hole in my work belt as it has loosened up by about an inch. So I'm not discouraged at all by the weigh in. For the month it is a total loss of 17 pounds which means I'm still over the 3 pounds per week pace that I will need to keep to get to 220.
A NEW PROGRAM:
Now that month one is done I decided to change the program up a little. About 7 years ago when I dropped nearly 50 pounds I did it with the help of "The Body-For-Life" program. I had been lifting for a few months and wasn't dropping any weight. So I went to GNC to see if there were any dietary supplementation that I could take that would spur on some weight loss. The employee there asked me about my diet and I told him that it wasnt the best, and he recommended that I pick up the "Body-For-Life" book before going the supplement route. So I did just that, I drove over to Barnes & Noble and bought it. When I got home I read it cover to cover and really thought that it made so much sense and it was very simple as well. I had great results in 12 weeks! I weighed 245 when I was done with the "challenge." Of course, shortly after the completion of that "challenge" is when I had a bit of a medical issue that really threw me off course and back on track to fat city. Well since the first month is over I decided to go back to the "Body-for-Life" program, and start another 12 week challenge. I bought the new "Body-for-Life" book, I suggest the you buy the original first since the second book is a lot more about some of the past champions of the program. Since I'm already eating the 6 meals a day, the only difference is the training. You go Upperbody lifting, Cardio, Lowerbody lifting, Cardio, repeat. The lifting routines are done at a very quick pace making them cardio workouts as well and you only do two exercises per body part. It is a very exhausting workout to say the least. If you are looking to change your body this is a very effective tool and I do suggest it.
Monday, August 3, 2009
Monday, July 27, 2009
Week 3: A bad week with a great result
Such a tough week for me on a personal level but for some reason it seemed to motivate me even more. I honestly don't know why this extra motivation kicked in. Maybe I am really tired of being fat, drunk and stupid.
Anyway, the end result for the week was awesome. Tonight the scale read 305 pounds. That is a 7 pound loss for the week and makes a total of 17 pounds in three weeks. I crushed that weekly goal I set of 5 pounds, well 2 pounds is crushing it in this case. 85 pounds to go!
The goal for next week will be to dip below the 300 pound mark which would be another 6 pounds.
I wanna say thanks to all of you who have let me know that you are following the blog and my progress. It is great to hear from you, your well wishes are very helpful! Feel free to write or comment on the blogs.
Anyway, the end result for the week was awesome. Tonight the scale read 305 pounds. That is a 7 pound loss for the week and makes a total of 17 pounds in three weeks. I crushed that weekly goal I set of 5 pounds, well 2 pounds is crushing it in this case. 85 pounds to go!
The goal for next week will be to dip below the 300 pound mark which would be another 6 pounds.
I wanna say thanks to all of you who have let me know that you are following the blog and my progress. It is great to hear from you, your well wishes are very helpful! Feel free to write or comment on the blogs.
Friday, July 24, 2009
A bad day that gets worse
Along with getting physically fit, this blog will also help to get me mentally fit. So from time to time I will vent emotion here, this is one of those times.
For those of you that do not know what I do for a living, I mow grass. All day everyday and with it comes lots and lots of time to let the mind think. Sounds alright, and for most days it is, but when a day starts bad it always seems to get worse because the mind continues down the bad path and I get deeper into darkness. Typically, its a day of self loathing for me. I start thinking about how in the hell I got to this point in my life. I'm single, fat, living at home, and driving a lawn tractor for a living. What the hell happened to me? There was a time when I was a pretty bright kid. I weighed 210, I was a good guy with virtually no vices, hell I didnt have my first drink until I was 19. Today was one of these bad days. The difference today was there was some extra crap added to my shit sandwich of a day.
My original motivation for starting this quest was a friend and a super great girl. Yeah I know what you're thinking, "he's doing all this for a girl?" Well not quite what you think. We have spent some time hanging out talking, including a long ride to OC, MD and we talked a lot about different stuff. Now I've had a mini crush on her for a long time but knew that I wasn't in her league, and this story, me crushing on anyone, has never ended well for me so I always kept it to myself. While chatting she revealed what she's looking for in a guy, I was not in that group of men to say the least. That is what got me thinking about me and where I'm at in life. It kinda pissed me off that I was getting lopped off of the "maybe" piles for girls based on my choice for making a living, and then getting lopped off because of appearance made it worse. I know I'm fat and have been that way for awhile, but I still see a good looking cat in the mirror. I thought a sense of humor and great personality are supposed to be the things that girls find most attractive....that's BULL! That only applies when they choose between the ones they find attractive. It's true for guys as well, we just dont lie about it. This being on the "no way" pile is truely the reason for my determination to change a lot about me. Of course I held out hope that maybe if I could make a few changes that I could climb onto her "maybe" pile someday.
Since I was having a crappy day I talked to her knowing that just talking with her makes me smile. Of course it works, she doesn't even say anything funny but I smile anyway and I start to feel better. We talk about her trip and things quickly turn back to crappy as she tells me that she met "her match" while hiking in Denali. Contiunes to tell me she is thinking about moving there, there being Alaska. So not only would it matter that I didnt get onto the maybe pile but now there would be a chance of a great friend and person in my life moving 10 billion miles away. So the day just got worse.
In the past I would let news like this crush me into a hole. Slip in a depressed state and amp the self loathing. It's not gonna happen this time! I went to the gym after our talk and Killed it because I was so pissed at myself. Pissed that I am even at this place right now. I am gonna use this to amp up the motivation to get this goal done. While I'm really bummed right now, I know I will change this feeling eventually. Hell she's not even the biggest squashed crush in my life. I am even more determined than ever to never miss an opportunity to be around a great girl like her because of my size EVER again!
For those of you that do not know what I do for a living, I mow grass. All day everyday and with it comes lots and lots of time to let the mind think. Sounds alright, and for most days it is, but when a day starts bad it always seems to get worse because the mind continues down the bad path and I get deeper into darkness. Typically, its a day of self loathing for me. I start thinking about how in the hell I got to this point in my life. I'm single, fat, living at home, and driving a lawn tractor for a living. What the hell happened to me? There was a time when I was a pretty bright kid. I weighed 210, I was a good guy with virtually no vices, hell I didnt have my first drink until I was 19. Today was one of these bad days. The difference today was there was some extra crap added to my shit sandwich of a day.
My original motivation for starting this quest was a friend and a super great girl. Yeah I know what you're thinking, "he's doing all this for a girl?" Well not quite what you think. We have spent some time hanging out talking, including a long ride to OC, MD and we talked a lot about different stuff. Now I've had a mini crush on her for a long time but knew that I wasn't in her league, and this story, me crushing on anyone, has never ended well for me so I always kept it to myself. While chatting she revealed what she's looking for in a guy, I was not in that group of men to say the least. That is what got me thinking about me and where I'm at in life. It kinda pissed me off that I was getting lopped off of the "maybe" piles for girls based on my choice for making a living, and then getting lopped off because of appearance made it worse. I know I'm fat and have been that way for awhile, but I still see a good looking cat in the mirror. I thought a sense of humor and great personality are supposed to be the things that girls find most attractive....that's BULL! That only applies when they choose between the ones they find attractive. It's true for guys as well, we just dont lie about it. This being on the "no way" pile is truely the reason for my determination to change a lot about me. Of course I held out hope that maybe if I could make a few changes that I could climb onto her "maybe" pile someday.
Since I was having a crappy day I talked to her knowing that just talking with her makes me smile. Of course it works, she doesn't even say anything funny but I smile anyway and I start to feel better. We talk about her trip and things quickly turn back to crappy as she tells me that she met "her match" while hiking in Denali. Contiunes to tell me she is thinking about moving there, there being Alaska. So not only would it matter that I didnt get onto the maybe pile but now there would be a chance of a great friend and person in my life moving 10 billion miles away. So the day just got worse.
In the past I would let news like this crush me into a hole. Slip in a depressed state and amp the self loathing. It's not gonna happen this time! I went to the gym after our talk and Killed it because I was so pissed at myself. Pissed that I am even at this place right now. I am gonna use this to amp up the motivation to get this goal done. While I'm really bummed right now, I know I will change this feeling eventually. Hell she's not even the biggest squashed crush in my life. I am even more determined than ever to never miss an opportunity to be around a great girl like her because of my size EVER again!
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